She ran to Las Vegas and gave herself four years to climb out of the rabbit hole she felt like she had fallen into.It was there that she was finally ready to fight her own demons and uncover what she wanted to do for the rest of her life - but not without some embarrassing experiences with men not Hugh Hefner.The breaking point for the couple came when Benji called her up, explaining how someone from her team called "'his people,' asking him to appear on my show. I knew they wanted him on the show, I just didn't think anyone would ever go behind my back to ask." Looking back at her dating life balancing act, Holly tells toofab that it was difficult, in general, to keep the two worlds separate."It was definitely hard to strike a balance because, in my dating life, I wanted to have the authenticity of getting to know people off camera and I was also concerned with keeping my private life private," she explains.In the book, she explains how one "higher-up" told her, "If this guy cares about you at all, he should have no problem being on your television show." Madison explains that she refused to talk about him during interviews, which led to a "major blowout" behind the scenes.
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"The whole scenario made me look so desperate," she writes.
She had a raunchy romance with an actor referred to as "Mark," who lost a condom inside her after a vacation sex session.
Hugh Hefner is not amused that his ex-girlfriend Holly Madison is releasing a tell-all book about her time in the Playboy Mansion.
The retired Playmate and reality television star writes about orgies, drugs and her former lover’s controlling habits in her memoir “Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny.” Madison details the emotional and verbal abuse she faced while living in the house.